Cycle

There is no box small enough 

Nowhere I can hide 

This place just keeps getting louder 

I'm dying more inside 

Every punishment gets longer and deeper 

Every moment seems to extend 

It’s happening again

The anger dripping from the corners of his lips like venom from a serpents tooth

Alligator eyes seeing nothing human just something to devour

Someone to make go away

Day 1:

I love you

I love you and losing you is the scariest thing ever!

EVER!

You do so much, you are so much, I can’t believe, I don’t deserve you.

You’re empathy is unmatched, I’m sorry I’m ruining your life

I’m sorry, I’m sorry

I want to spend time talking to you, being with you, learning to love you better, I want to be the person you need me to be

Tears, touch, hugs

Rest as the resentment starts creeping in 

Day 2: 

Normal

This is normal

This is what life should be like when it’s level, even, balanced

Methodic

Good morning, coffee?, kiss, work, lunch, laugh, kiss

After work chill

This is nice, how was your day, dinner, dessert, meds are gone, resentment builds

You don’t know how you speak

You don’t KNOW 

YoU DON’T

YOU DON’T

DON’T 

THIS ISN’T ABOUT BAD COMMUNICATION!!

Missed irony

Abrupt silence

Day 3:

Everything is awkward

Avoid physical contact at all cost

Resent, anger

Morning, avert eyes, BIIIIIIG circles around each other

Don’t talk...slow...gentle

...what do you want for dinner?...

Gentle...slow...misstep..

YOU DON’T

Day 4:

Silence

Building resentment

No Physical Contact

Try to avoid eye contact

Day 5:

Silence

No Physical Contact

Building Resentment

Gentle...slow...yet?...

YOU DON’T

I CAN’T

Silence

Day 6:

This was my fault

That was yours

I am sorry

I am sorry

Heads ducked into arms

Slowly packing anger away 

Hug

Silence

Hug

Good night

Day 7:

This is normal?

This is normal

Methodic

Gentle...jokes...kiss...work, work, work, lunch? Laugh, work, work

Normal...egg shells...normal

Day 8:

I love you

I love you and losing you is the scariest thing ever!

You do so much, you are so much and I can’t believe I even deserve you.

You’re empathy is unmatched and I’m sorry I’m ruining your life.

I want to spend time talking to you, being with you, learning to love you better.

Tears, touch, hugs

Fall asleep as the resentment builds again